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  Somehow, when she'd least expected it, things had turned easy with him.

  No, not easy. Scary as hell, in fact. But her want truly overrode her fear tonight, and the pleasure he'd brought her was beyond anything she'd ever experienced. Now she wanted to please him, too.

  The truth was, though, she barely knew how. She was more accustomed to being a recipient than a giver of sexual favors. But she was going to follow her instincts. She bit her lip, staring down at the thick bulge in his jeans.

  She felt him watching her, studying her every expression and move. It should have increased her worry, made her feel she'd been placed in a spotlight—that's how it usually was with her and sex, when she deigned to have it. But with Jake, his penetrating gaze only made her want to please him that much more, made her want to be some sort of sexual vixen for him. "Don't be afraid, chère."

  She took the words to heart. Don't be afraid, Stephanie. Not now. Just follow your instincts. And tonight, she realized happily, there was no selling it, no asking herself to be something she wasn't, no masquerade of any kind. Tonight, it was real—she was a woman who wanted to be with this man, in every way.

  Reaching down, she undid the top button on his Levi's, hissing in her breath as she drew the zipper down to reveal white cotton straining from what lay within.

  She touched him through his underwear, let her fingers close gingerly around the large columnar shape. Big. He was big. She gasped softly and prayed he hadn't heard since he was watching her hand now, his eyes gone glassy, his breath heavy.

  She was probably the only woman on the face of the planet who took a man's pants off hoping he was small, but the realization made her understand: Jake was so right about what scared her, that the night she'd heard her parents arguing made her fear pain. And Jake was probably bigger than any man she'd been with.

  That's okay. Because you aren't going to have sex. He said so. Just fooling around. That's all you 're going to do.

  And like before, it was that affirmation that allowed her to push every ounce of trepidation aside and relish him.

  Glancing from his erection to his face, she said, "Lift," and he did, allowing her to lower his jeans. Underneath, he wore snug boxer briefs that barely contained him, his stiffness stretching the top edge of the underwear. Next, she reached for the elastic and he rose up, helping her push them down. Her womb contracted with need at the sight of him.

  She didn't bother taking his jeans and underwear the rest of the way off—just reached down and ran the flat of her palm up his length, letting his gasp of pleasure fill her. She slowly began to stroke him, thinking how amazing the male anatomy was. But wait, no, not every male. This male's anatomy was amazing, moving her in ways she'd never expected to be moved. How could he feel like satin and steel at the same time?

  She lowered her mouth, kissing his tip.

  His groan traveled the length of her body and made her want to give him more, so much more—so she followed the unfamiliar urge to sink her mouth onto him.

  She moved slowly, feeling her way, sensing his pleasure. His hand wove through her hair, holding it back from her face. He murmured deeply in French and she savored knowing he watched her.

  She was not a virgin at this, but it was the first time in her life she'd ever wanted to do it, ever felt the urge to give a man that gift without any prodding on his part. She hoped he could sense what it meant to her, how freely she gave, and as their gazes met, she believed he could. "Mmm, ça c'est bon, beb. Oui."

  She wanted to take him where he'd taken her, to utter ecstasy—and within a few moments, his labored breath had turned to moans, until he uttered, "Now."

  She rose off him, wishing he were inside her, wanting to feel him there—but before she could even weigh those thoughts, his rough groan permeated the air and his warmth splashed across her stomach.

  She gasped, looking down, and he reached for her, kissing her wildly, his tongue plundering her mouth as he pulled her tight against him. "Mon Dieu," he whispered breathlessly between kisses. "Mmm, merci, chère. Merci."

  A moment later, they lay unmoving, her body still plastered to his, when he kissed her forehead and offered a soft, sexy grin that nearly turned her inside out.

  She smiled back. "You speak French a lot more when you're excited."

  He arched a devilish brow. "Oui."

  She chuckled, drinking in the mannish scent of him, and of sex that hadn't quite happened. And yet, even without the act of sex, she felt so close to him. He rolled them so they lay face-to-face on their sides, bodies still crushed together. She bit her lip and met his gaze. "What I did just now ... I don't usually do that."

  He tilted his head against the pillow, those chocolate eyes seeming to bore into her soul. "That makes me a very lucky man, no?"

  She smiled. "Yes."

  His grin faded, their faces still close, his embrace loosening only slightly. "Why'd you do it, chère?"

  "Because I wanted to. I just... wanted to. I can't explain it," she said, then laughed, thinking how many times she'd said that to him in their short acquaintance. "I can't seem to explain much when it comes to me and sex, but... I wanted to make you feel as good as you'd made me feel. I wanted to be... as intimate with you as I could."

  His next smile came more warm than playful. "You succeeded. And some guys would say that's better than sex anyway."

  "Some guys," she repeated. "What about you?"

  "Don't get me wrong, what you just gave me was... incredible." He flashed a quick grin. "And I'll be happy to oblige anytime you feel that urge. But," he said, grin fading, "for me, nothin's quite the same as bein' inside a woman, as sharin' that ultimate connection. Know what I mean?"

  Despite how meaningless that connection had seemed for most of her adult life thus far, she did know what he meant and she wanted that with him so, so badly. "I wish I were braver," she said softly, almost hoping the fan would suck the words out of the air, even as she spoke them. She didn't like admitting her weaknesses.

  He pulled back slightly to look at her. "You're about the bravest woman I ever met, Stephanie Grant."

  She flinched. "Me?"

  He quirked a light smile. "I don't know any other woman who comes runnin' down to a strange city, ready to move hell and earth and high-priced prostitutes to get what she wants."

  She swallowed and gave her head a short shake. "That's not bravery, Jake. That's... having no other choice."

  "No, chère. That is bravery. I promise." She lowered her gaze. "Well, then, I wish I were braver about sex."

  "You're doin' just fine, beb." He winked. "Do you see either one of us lyin' here frustrated?"

  "Well, not anymore, but up to now ..."

  "You act like somewhere along the way you became obligated to sleep with me."

  "No, not obligated. But I wanted to. I really, really wanted to. From the first moment I saw you on the other side of the bar, I wanted to be with you. And when you came into that red room and things started up between us, and you were kissing me and touching me... God, Jake, it nearly killed me to say no."

  "Really?"

  She spoke with sureness. "You knew. You had to know."

  "Okay, I knew in the red room. But I didn't know at the bar."

  He kissed her then, warm and sweet, and she feared she'd been too honest, but she didn't care anymore—so far, tonight, honesty had taken them to some wonderful places. "From the first time I looked into your eyes," she admitted.

  And he was kissing her again, deeper now—nothing sweet or casual, all heat, his tongue moving against hers, making love to her mouth as his thigh slid between her legs.

  As they shifted in the bed, she felt the wetness not quite dried on her stomach and said, "Did we make a mess on your grandma's quilt?"

  He laughed softly as he rubbed his thigh against her. "I told you, we're doomed to have a wet spot. But fortunately for us, Mamère wasn't real picky about that sorta thing."

  "About you having sex on her quilt?" she said, gi
ggling.

  He grinned. "No. About things bein' kept perfectly tidy. She thought things should be used for what they were made for, and if they wore out or got messed up, it meant they were servin' their purpose."

  "Just the same," she said, "I'd feel better if we pushed the quilt down. It seems ... kind of sacred or something, especially if she made it."

  "She did," he said, sounding a little more reverent, and together they lifted and shoved until the quilt lay scrunched at their feet and only soft white sheets spread beneath them. "Speakin' of grandmothers, how was the pie?"

  She grinned up at him, remembering. "Good. A hint more cinnamon and it would have rivaled Grandma's. Definitely the best I've had since hers."

  He cuddled against her. "I hope it maybe made you feel... a little like she was still around or somethin'. Like I feel when I come out here."

  Her heart warmed as she reflected. "Yeah, for a few minutes, I guess maybe it did." Then she reached up to touch his chest. "Thank you for that."

  He just shook his head. "Nothin' big, chère." But she wasn't so sure she agreed.

  'Tina crocheted," she said unthinkingly, just wanting to tell him.

  "Hmm?"

  "She crocheted. Winter scarves. I couldn't believe it— she's not normally the crafty type—so when she showed me this beautiful scarf she'd made, I was stormed. She gave it to my mom, but now I kind of want to get hold of it and pack it away, keep it pristine and perfect, you know."

  "Mamère wouldn't have approved of that—and I don't know your sister, but I bet it'd mean more to her if the scarf kept your mom warm come wintertime."

  Stephanie swallowed, soberly remembering just what had brought her to Louisiana. Her lost sister. "Tell me the truth about something, Jake. Do you think we'll find her?"

  He nodded softly, surely. "We'll find her, beb. We'll find her. I promise."

  Chapter 14

  A few minutes later, Stephanie stood in the tiny bathroom and peered at herself in the mirror, unable to believe she was in a house on some dark bayou, in bed with a man she'd just met, while her sister was missing. And she couldn't recall the last time she'd felt so safe.

  When she exited to the bedroom, she found Jake sitting up, still wonderfully naked, a sheet pulled to his waist.

  "Not going shy on me, are you, Mr. Broussard?" she asked with a smile.

  He arched one eyebrow. "You're not serious?"

  She laughed. "No."

  "Good, 'cause you'd be sorely disappointed. I don't do shy." With that, he whipped back the sheet and drew her onto the bed until she found herself straddling his lap. She pulled in her breath and glanced down to find him erect again, pressing against her center. Jake was looking, too. "Neither does he."

  It was her turn to raise an eyebrow. "He?"

  "The little guy down there."

  She tilted her head. "I... wouldn't call him little."

  He slid against her in a smooth and utterly arousing stroke as the corners of his mouth quirked into a smile. "That makes him like you even better."

  She couldn't help rubbing back, all amusement fading as passion returned full force.

  "That feels so damn good, beb." His voice was a low growl.

  She let out a breathless sigh. "For me, too."

  "Playin' with fire, though. You gotta know that."

  She nodded, unable to think clearly. "Kiss me," she said, and he braced one hand behind her neck, pulling her closer, delivering a series of hot, short, sexy kisses that nearly buried her.

  He gazed down at her breasts before bending to capture one in his mouth. She locked her hands behind his neck and leaned back to offer him better access, unable not to press against the column that stood so powerful between them. Instinct led her into soft, rolling gyrations.

  "Guess you're not afraid of fire, huh, chère?' he asked, breath labored.

  "Not at the moment," she managed, unable to believe how badly she wanted him inside her, how much she yearned for that ultimate connection. Although she'd thought she'd grasped it completely before, she suddenly gained a deeper understanding of what he'd just said a few minutes ago—there was nothing like actually doing it, actually bringing your bodies together that way. She'd never felt that before with a man, but she felt it now.

  Their kisses turned rougher, more needful. His hands roamed her—breasts, back, rear, before his fingers slid down over her bottom, into her wetness, making her move against him harder.

  She found herself rising—without thought or decision—until she was poised atop his erection, teetering on the edge of heaven, and ready, so very ready. Fear be damned.

  "Ah, beb," he breathed, his dark eyes filled with longing. "Does this mean you want me inside you?" His hands rhythmically kneaded her backside.

  She nodded, lost in desire. "Yes." Then she bit her hp. "Do you have a condom?"

  "Merde," he muttered, leaning his head back in frustration. "I can't believe this, but I don't."

  She gasped. "I can't believe it, either." She was so close to sinking down on him, taking him into her, and her words came out sounding breathless. "No offense, but you seem like a guy who'd have reason to carry a condom with you at all times."

  He managed a grin, even through ragged breath and what she thought incredible restraint. "I do, at least lately. But when I went home, I changed into old jeans for comin' out here in the pirogue, and forgot my wallet in my other pocket."

  She sucked in her breath. Her breasts ached and the crux of her thighs yearned to be filled. "That's ... horrible." Especially given that she didn't know if she could stop now. She needed him inside her.

  "If it helps, I've only been with one woman without usin' one—and I was her first, her only—so..."

  "I'm on the pill," she said, "and always careful about condoms."

  She saw him swallow, his eyes glazed over with how close they were to doing it. "It's your call, beb."

  She placed her hands on his shoulders, curling the tips of her fingernails into his skin, peering at him intently. "How badly do you want this?"

  Trembling, he appeared barely able to speak. "I'm about to self-destruct."

  She drew in a quivery breath. "Me too."

  Only one answer existed—nothing left to do but surrender.

  She sank down.

  That hungry part of her began taking him in, slow, deep—and he was so sweet, staying so very still for her, the heat in his gaze branding her heart. From the old stereo across the room, Solomon Burke wrenched out the soulful "Cry to Me," and the jolting rhythm prompted her motions. The song was an old favorite of her mother's, but as she made love to Jake to the searing notes, they moved her in a way they never had before. The music drove her to arch against him, lean her head back so he could kiss her neck.

  "Hurt?" he whispered between little nips at her throat.

  Their eyes met. It should hurt. He was so big. But it didn't. She simply shook her head. He let out a low growl of satisfaction, accompanied with a sexy smile as he met her next thrust.

  "Mmm," she purred, their hips meeting in perfect unison to the beat of the song.

  He pushed into her in long, smooth strokes, his hands in her hair, hers wrapped around his neck. "Ahhh, oui, beb."

  Their movements stayed slow, intense—and except for the moments when passion drove one of them to let their eyes fall shut, they gazed at each other the whole time, so that when she moaned, she was looking into those warm brown eyes. When she cried out from the overwhelming pleasure, she was looking into those warm brown eyes. And when the heat began to rise inside her, as her breath went thready while she bucked softly against him, she was still looking into those beautiful warm brown eyes.

  The spasms of release racked her body, drove her harder against him, made her moan, and moan, and moan with each amazing pulsation. She was still coming, their gazes still connected, when he rasped, "Mon Dieu, me too."

  He emptied himself in her with a powerful groan, wrapping corded arms around her as they both panted thei
r exhaustion.

  "Sorry," he whispered in her ear when it was done.

  She drew back slightly. "For what?"

  "Long as it took us to get there, I shoulda made it last a little longer."

  She was dumbfounded, letting a satisfied smile take her as she said, "Jake, that was the best sex of my life."

  Their faces still close, the corners of his mouth turned up into a smile. "Then this is your lucky day, chère. 'Cause there's plenty more where that came from."

  He lay next to her, the sheet pulled to their waists, his head propped up by one elbow. "I'm glad it didn't hurt." She was sure she'd never seen him look sexier than he did just now, naked in bed, eyes half shut, chin covered with a day's dark stubble.

  She gazed up at him, listening to the night sounds. The records had all dropped and played, and the only remaining music came from the bayou. "Me too."

  "Has it hurt... other times? I mean, since the college

  guy?"

  "A little, I guess," she said, swallowing. "But... you're bigger than the guys it hurt with, so I don't know ..." "You explained this yourself before, chère. It's 'cause you weren't hot for them—your body wasn't ready. Tonight, it was."

  "Was it ever," she said on a heady sigh.

  As he shifted, she noticed the tattoo on his arm. Inked in muted black and gray, the size of a fist, it looked too complex for her to easily make out the picture. She reached up to touch it. "What's your tattoo?"

  "St. Michael, the archangel."

  She looked closer to see a winged angel brandishing a sword and stepping on the head of some kind of demon.

  "The patron saint of police officers," he explained. "He's castin' Satan into hell. It's a good-triumphin'-over-evil thing. We pray to St. Michael to protect us."

  We, he'd said. As if he were still a cop.

  "Does it work?" she asked.

  He rolled to his back, put his hands behind his head, and peered up at the brown slatted ceiling. "Tricky question, chère. Depends on what you consider protection."